As I count down to my fortieth birthday, I feel like I need to write the expected “What I’ve Learned” blog post. So, over the next three weeks I will share a series of things I’ve discovered in my first forty years of life. But first, I’m going to start with where I am right now.
As I write this I am working from home, actually I’m at the Blue Moon having a Cinnamon Roll Latte. I am in my third month with a new job. To be honest, I am still adjusting. Not just to the new job, but to what I left behind to take this opportunity. My family is strong, and in fact doing well because of my new job.
I am a few pounds over weight, got an app to help me stay motivated with that. I thought that sometime I would actually feel like an adult, but I don’t. I sing in the hallways at work, tell bad jokes, and release a Woohoo! in every conversation I have. I feel insecure, doubt barrages me all the time. I miss my friends. And I feel like a failure with all the goals I haven’t achieved.
Sometimes my family breaks my heart with the most beautiful moments. The way my girls say “I love you, daddy.” Watching my son shine on stage. The beauty of my wife’s smile.
I don’t know why, but approaching this birthday has been a challenge. I think I have more questions then answers, but I hope to share with you a few insights over the next couple of weeks. Next Turning 40 post, “Why the past matters.”